February 14
Afraid to see what a bad person I am

Afraid to see what a bad person I am

I have been reading a book about a psychiatrist who successfully treated a woman with multiple personalities. The most fascinating thing about the book to me is that some of the personalities had to wear glasses; some had high blood pressure, some diabetes. Others didn’t have any of these maladies. I thought how is that possible? In the same body, one personality had to wear glasses, but another one didn’t? Does it mean that every sickness is in the mind? I just can’t stop thinking about this.

I discussed this topic with a few people and they have been as interested as I yet at least a couple of them weren’t as surprised as I was. My massage therapist said that the mind/body connection is very much a mystery. She relayed a story about a man who was treated for cancer with a placebo and was healed because he believed in it. When he was told his treatment had nothing to do with his healing, it was all in his mind, his cancer returned. He went back into cancer treatment and again his doctors treated him with a placebo. Again, he was totally healed. Again, his doctors informed him about the fact that he was healed by his belief in the treatment, not by any medicine. And, for the second time, his cancer returned. Why? Obviously, he wanted to be healed. I just do not understand. I mean I do understand (what’s not to understand about it). What I don’t understand is why I do not allow myself to be healed without chemicals. I don’t mind using natural remedies, but I do not want to use manmade chemicals.

I have high blood pressure; why I haven’t I just told myself that I do not have high blood pressure and make it go away. It should work. My mind is the master of my body (or it is supposed to be).

Further into the discussion with my massage therapist, we were discussing issues that were causing each other distress, emotional and physical. She mentioned her daughter had a scar on her foot that was very distressing. I told her to use some Balsam Fir essential oil on it. My husband used it on his scars from double knee surgeries last summer and they are remarkably healed. I mentioned I was having distressing trouble with my eyesight. I asked her if she knew of an oil I could use to help improve my eyesight and then she said something that rocked me to my very core. She said, “My life coach would say, “What are you trying not to see?”
I said, “What did you say?” but, I knew exactly what she had said, and I knew exactly what my response to the question was.
She repeated, “My life coach would say, “What are you trying not to see?
“Trying not to see? You mean I can’t see well because I am trying not to see something? I asked with tears welling up in my eyes. ”Yes, exactly,” she said. My response was immediate. I knew exactly what to say.
“What a bad person I am,” I said, crying.

All this discussion about the mind/body connection and being able to heal myself by speaking to my mind and taking control of my thoughts is not a new idea. Of course, nothing is new the Bible tells me that.

Ecclesiastes 1:3-11
What do people gain from all their labors
at which they toil under the sun?
Generations come and generations go,
but the earth remains forever.
The sun rises and the sun sets,
and hurries back to where it rises.
The wind blows to the south
and turns to the north;
round and round it goes,
ever returning on its course.
All streams flow into the sea,
yet the sea is never full.
To the place the streams come from,
there they return again.
All things are wearisome,
more than one can say.
The eye never has enough of seeing,
nor the ear its fill of hearing.
What has been will be again,
what has been done will be done again;
there is nothing new under the sun.
10 Is there anything of which one can say,
“Look! This is something new”?
It was here already, long ago;
it was here before our time.
11 No one remembers the former generations,
and even those yet to come
will not be remembered
by those who follow them.

SO! What do I DO? I must have a cheerful heart. I must not let my bones dry up. This is what the Bible teaches me through Proverbs.

Proverbs 17:22

A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

 2 Corinthians 10: 3-5

For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

 When I know that nothing is new. That God is always present in the world and in me. When I know that He has already given me the good medicine and that good medicine is a cheerful heart. I must see to it that I use that cheerful heart. When I know that His divine power will demolish the strongholds that want to take my mind captive and make me become disobedient to Christ; when I know all this and ACT on it and become a victor, then I am  healed!

I am speaking to my mind. I am healed. I do not have high blood pressure. I have cheerful heart. My mind is captive to the truth that God has given me. Amen.